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Let me take you on two wild page-turning adventures about cult survival, romance, world-travel, magic, and miracles. I write about me so that you may discover more about you. While my memoirs are fun, racy, and outrageous, they explore deep themes of self-betrayal, self-love, overcoming grief and trauma, finding our purpose, and healing from toxic relationships. I offer my words as a healing to your soul, a lifting for your heart, and a reminder that everything that happened to you has happened for you.

The Burn Zone: A Memoir is the story of my search for Truth in a Buddhist cult, my struggle to forgive, and my ultimate freedom on the other side of "brainwashed." Not only is it a crazy, page-turning, jaw-dropping cult story, but in a wild way it's everybody's story—the ways we betray ourselves trying to be who the world tells us to be, and the soul-sickness caused by not being true to ourselves. I realized that sharing my story could and would help others. It could help release people from the chains that bind them to facades they no longer need, encourage them to accept themselves and let go of their past, inspire them to step into their wholeness, help them forgive and heal, and lead them to embrace life with more excitement and a truer sense of Self.



The Burn Zone: A Memoir

After getting ordained as a Buddhist monk in 2010, I moved from San Diego to New York, where I believed I would continue on my journey to Enlightenment. Instead, I got creamed: I lost over $500,000 in three months and was smeared all over the NY tabloids as the jaded lover who abandoned her business partner/ex-lover on a jealous whim. Betrayed and broken, I moved to Colorado to heal, thinking the hard part was over, but discovered rapidly it had only just begun. Alone, empty, and suicidal I was left with some pretty serious questions: How had I let this happen? How had I been so naïve? What the hell was I thinking?

And then, in the darkness of my solitude, it dawned on me: I was in a cult. I had been in a cult for close to seven years and I was severely brainwashed. But how had I let that happen? Me. I graduated Magna Cum Laude with a double degree. I travelled to nearly fifty countries alone before I turned thirty-five. I was a surf model. I was a professional Argentine Tango dancer. I had started five different companies. I was getting an MBA from NYU! How could someone like me end up brainwashed in a cult?

I began to backtrack through my life to find answers. They began with this: I was surrounded by death at an early age -- most of my family died when I was young. With my father’s death on Thanksgiving Day when I was fifteen, I started searching for the big answers about life: why are we here; what happens after we die? My search led me to remote corners of the world. It led me through countless self-help books and to many different types of healers. It led me to embrace my wild side in the beds of many different men. It led me to fantastically fun careers. Then, when I was in my late twenties, my mother went missing. . . days later, I found her in a morgue: death by drowning in a hotel bathtub. A few years later I watched my godmother die slowly and painfully of brain cancer. More wounds that cut me deeply. I had no family left besides my brother and I was lost. A wild child with a dream life, lost. Until I wandered into a Tantric Buddhist Meditation seminar and I walked out completely changed. I had found what I had been looking for since my father died: Peace. Overwhelming Peace. And I had found it in the form of a magnificent spiritual teacher.

The Burn Zone: A Memoir is the story of my search for Truth, my struggle to forgive, and my ultimate freedom on the other side of "deranged and damaged." Writing this book started as a catharsis. When I moved to Colorado I needed to get the story out of me so I could heal and move on with my life. In the beginning it was about anger. Now it’s about love. In order to heal I had to let go of the past. I had to excavate my true Self from all of the rubble. I had to find a way to embrace the version of me that came out the other side, utterly changed. And I had to find a way to forgive my mother, to forgive my spiritual teachers, to forgive the ex-lover in New York, and ultimately to forgive myself.

As my story unfolded onto the page, I realized that sharing my story could and would help others. It could help release people from the chains that bind them to facades they no longer need; it would encourage them to accept themselves and let go of their past, inspire them to step into their wholeness; help them forgive and heal, and ultimately embrace life with more excitement and a truer sense of Self. Written with honesty and humor, my story is everybody’s story and my victory is everybody’s victory. We all owe it to this world to be the loudest brightest truest versions of ourselves that we can possibly be, let's get started, shall we?

Book Cover Photography by In Her Image Photography

Where The Burn Zone was an exploration of what happens when we don’t listen to our Inner Guidance, Still on Fire is an exposition of what happens when we do. I expose all my dirty laundry in this book! From love affairs with men half my age, to being rescued by angels, getting stranded at 22,000 feet in the Himalayas and being electrocuted in the Maldives, picking up the pieces after being shattered, and hilarious attempts to regain my mojo—of course adding all the wisdom I gained along the way. You will see yourself in my stories. You will remember it is not only okay, but necessary to try and fail. And your heart will lift as you become reminded of a deep Truth you have always known but may have forgotten along the way—life is magic and anything is possible.

Still on Fire: A Memoir

Magic, miracles, travel, and romance—this is where Renee leads you in her long-awaited sequel to The Burn Zone. From love affairs with men half her age, to being rescued by angels, to getting stranded at 22,000 feet in the Himalayas and being electrocuted in the Maldives, Renee takes you on a wild page-turning adventure; sharing with you soul-soothing wisdom she gained along the way.

Where The Burn Zone was an exploration of what happens when we don’t listen to our Inner Guidance, Still on Fire is an exposition of what happens when we do. As Renee courageously takes leap after leap into the unknown, picks up the pieces after being shattered, or recounts hilarious attempts to regain her mojo, you will see yourself in her stories. You will remember it is not only okay, but necessary to try and fail. And your heart will lift as you become reminded of a deep Truth you have always known but may have forgotten along the way—life is magic and anything is possible.

If you are ready to start living life again; if you need encouragement to take a leap of faith, do something scary, or go on a wild adventure; if you are ready to pick up the pieces after being shattered; or if you are ready to triumph after tragedy--this book is for you.

I wrote it because I knew sharing my ups and downs, trails and tribulations, fantastic adventures, and timid/awkward/funny attempts to regain my mojo could help you feel better about your own struggles and insecurities. We are all human, after all, and being human is a messy experience. I'm convinced not one of us knows what we are really doing here--we are all just winging it.

I hope you enjoy it! I wrote it with love.

Here's to making the rest of our Earth Walk just a little more outrageous!

Book Cover Photography by In Her Image Photography

Book Reviews

"Her stories will resonate. Her advice will have you shaking your head in agreement. She brings such a light that just reminds us to love ourselves and to shine brightly."

-What Is This Book About

“My main takeaway from this book and Linnell as a writer is how incredibly strong and brilliant she is.” 

- The Plucky Reader

"This is one woman you cannot tell to stay in a box of any kind. Magic, miracles, travel, and romance…oh, must mention she is stranded at one point in the Himalayas, 22,000 feet up…yes, this gal is a true adventuress. Join me for a very unique conversation with a global traveler who isn’t afraid to try the unique, the unusual…who believes that life is magic and anything is possible."

-Donna Seebo

“Easily the best memoir I’ve ever read.” 

-Book Recon

"From cover to cover, I was constantly learning, thinking, and, quite often, being amazed at the experiences Renee has had in her life so far...Thank you Renee for sharing your experiences with the world!" 

- Library of Tortuga

“This page turner of a memoir is part cautionary tale, part inspirational story that speaks volumes about what makes people human and their longing to belong. The language is down to earth and easy to understand without any complicated meditation terms to learn. She simply tells her story in the hopes of inspiring others to live their true self. ‘The Burn Zone’ is recommended for readers who appreciate memoirs with spiritual and meditation themes.”

-SA Examiner

"Linnell describing her depression felt like I was reading parts of my own life in the last few years. If you’ve ever wanted to know what is going on with a loved one while they suffer from depression I can’t recommend this book enough. It’s raw and powerful and it’s true. And the way out of depression is also true. It’s not a quick process and if you want to know more definitely read this book.”

-Tea, Chocolate, and Books

"I cheered Renee on from the start. She finds purpose in her life right before the reader’s eyes, and what’s more relatable than that? I was captivated by the story and emotional at different points due to the author’s brutal honesty and vulnerability. Overall, I found The Burn Zone an impressive and memorable memoir, one that will stick with me."

-The Tar Heel Reader

You were                            once.
Don't let them tame you.




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– Isadora Duncan

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